There you have it. An exposé of yours truly. Wants you but is not programmed to have you. So, what is the opportunity? What must I do for love? Take a risk?
What about when you see what you want, but it's not working out? What do you do then? Do you work harder, communicate louder and push for it to work? This is a weak one-dimensional reaction to an elusive goal that rarely works or is sustainable.
We can go for a lifetime without committing to our freedom. To be stubborn for what matters can turn the rusted wheel. Let it grind and squeal because soon enough the bearings will allow you to glide that way.